The numbness
Everyone gets it.
Some more often than not
I can’t explain what’s going on.
The songs are yelling at me as the rain drowns me in.
The thunder like a wave of something angry yet comforting.
Can I go dancing?
To walk through the thick dark cloud knowing a strong embrace is waiting on the other side.
A headache
Something drilling at my skull that won’t budge
Won’t let loose
Immobilized
Though the lights are on my vision darkens and becomes unreadable
Nothing else is around me
The need to type is a constant reminder that in some cases I have no control
I have to do this.
Keep writing nonsense
Make things go in circles
Stop!
Dizziness
Where are you?
A maze dense with deep forest green
Blockages
Wrong ways
Why have you gone and left me?
What happened to what was, what use to be?
How did we end up this?
What went wrong?
Sorry, I can’t go back and change it
What done is done
Forgive me
The dead of winter in a wooded forest, snow on the ground untouched.
Walking, the white Burch bark trees speak in whispers
Can you hear me?
I’m waiting for you
Fear is struck
Heart quickens
Breathing thins
Running
Careful, don’t trip!
I’m right behind you
Oops you slipped
Freezing cold
Unbearable
Water
Choking
Unable to move
Help
Fading quickly
Falling fast
Moving is harder
Why?
I can’t grasp what you’re handing me
Why are you laughing?
Is something funny?
Can I know why your eyes are a dark muddy brown filled with something I can’t read?
What have I done now?
Numbness
My eyes are closing
Since when did you become so cruel?
I’ve hit bottom
My hair light weight
My clothes solid bricks
What happened to the sunny days?
The cool breeze on a hot summer’s day
The laughter
Smiles
The longing of each other’s embrace
I’m moving
Where to?
And
How?
A pull
A surge of whatever may be
Brightness enclosed by darkness
Eyes of an unknown colour
Strong hands from a rough days work
Male
I can breath
But faintly
My heart works
But softly
I’m unable to move on my own
Carried
A cloud has lifted my solid self
No sounds
No crash of the hidden water
No you
But why?
Warmth is calling me
Am I allowed to go?
Have I been given permission to do what is asked?
Slumber
A path unlike any other
Bold colours
Enriched detail
I’ve been here before
The smell of pine, earth and sweet grass
White pines bigger round then when we first met
The ground easy to move on and visible of hidden things
Safe
Secure
Sheltered
Untamable
Your eyes follow my every move
Muddy brown that were once warm
You should have left
Be gone for I no longer have willed to see you
Your embrace brings back what I do and don’t want
Leave me be
I have died yet you somehow follow
I turn from you
From this unknown person I thought I knew
A dress of flowing white softness caress my fragile body
As my bare feet gently touch down on the mossy ground
My hair catches wisps of current and flows about my face
My eyes see and now I know
I’ll be watching you
Again in years to come we will meet
Until then
Good-bye
The numbness
Everyone gets it.
Some more often than not
I can’t explain what’s going on.
The songs are yelling at me as the rain drowns me in.
The thunder like a wave of something angry yet comforting.
Can I go dancing?
For now on, know you are not alone in this vast world. It will get better.
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